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I heard myself grunting.

Saw Violet’s face in the mirror, watching mine.

Beyond terror.

She was speaking to me, but I couldn’t hear her. Couldn’t hear anything over the straining in my voice getting louder with each passing second.

“Luther,” I said through my teeth. “All right, turn it off.”

Sweat trickled down into my eyes and now I felt what could only be the cartilage beginning to stretch, and the pain was like a thousand needles sliding into my joints.

“Please!”

Through the sheet of tears, I could see the blurred image of Luther standing between the gurneys, watching me.

Each micron of time, the pain and the pull intensifying, and I realized I was screaming, and that nothing I had ever experienced had approached this level of complete agony.

Press the button, it’ll stop.

Press the button, Andy.

You’re being ripped apart.

You’ll take the pain back from her, but you just need a moment of relief.

A moment to think.

I felt my finger depress the button on the remote control.

The noise and hum beneath my gurney stopped, and that bright, cutting pain retreated.

I was gasping for breath, and I looked at Violet in the mirror, saw her watching me, tears running down her face as the cables began to stretch her feet.

“Push the button, Vi,” I said.

“No.”

“Vi—”

“I can take it, Andy.”

“No, you can’t. Give it back to me.”

I pressed my button, but nothing happened.

I could hear Vi straining now, fighting against that first uncomfortable tug.

In the mirror—her face the definition of dread.

“Luther, what do you want?” I said.

“This.”

“But this will be over soon.”

“Define soon.”

“You know what I mean. Eventually, we’ll be dead.”

“Please shut up, Andy. I’m trying to enjoy—”

“You want more than this, Luther.”

Violet groaned.

Her head was still immobilized and she stared into the ceiling, eyes bulging with disbelief.

Her groan became a high-pitched squeal—she was screaming through clenched teeth.

“Luther, stop it!” I screamed, and then, “Violet, push the button!”

Her scream became full-voiced, and it entered me like a knife in the gut, and then the thought came as a prayer, I just want to die.

The pain returned, somehow more brilliant than before, the machine vibrating beneath me as the gears resumed their terrible revolutions.

Now Vi was shouting my name, begging me to give back the pain and everything in my being was screaming for my thumb to push the button and oblige her, to stop these cables from tearing me apart.

The words must have been buried deep in my subconscious—I couldn’t recall having ever thought them—but suddenly I was scream-shouting, “I’LL BE HIM, LUTHER! PLEASE GOD STOP THIS! I’LL BE HIM! I’LL BE ORSON! I’LL BE MY BROTHER! I SWEAR TO GOD!”

I must have blacked out.

When I opened my eyes, my arms and legs burned but the tension was gone and the gurney no longer hummed beneath me.

I blinked through the tears.

Luther’s face was inches from mine.

Pale. Unblemished. Ageless.

His black eyes brimming with something I’d never seen in them before—real emotion.

Rage.

Confusion.

A bottomless sorrow.

“You miss him, don’t you?” I asked.

“Are you fucking with me?”

“Luther—”

“You think this is pain? I can break your mind.

“Listen to me. Do you know what my life has been these last several years? What Orson, what you have tried to make me? And I fought it and I fought it and I fought it…and now I’m done. Fucking done. We were twins, Luther. Do you understand that bond? Since his death, I’ve felt Orson inside of me, and he’s just been getting stronger.”

“You’d say anything to escape this pain.”

“Maybe that’s true. Or maybe what you said about pain is true. How it can make us learn about ourselves. And I’ve experienced nothing from you and my brother in the last eight years but pain. Physical, emotional, psychological.”

Vi said, “Andy, nothing you say is going to—”

“Shut the fuck up! Do you remember, Luther, what you said to me in the desert all those years ago?”

He just stared at me.

“You told me, ‘We all want blood.’ And you know what? You were right.”

I could see the wheels beginning to turn.

Traction.

I said, “You miss him, don’t you?”

“Yes.” He said it with no emotion but for the faintest glimmer of heartbreak in his eyes.

“You think my twin and I don’t share some core, elemental chemistry?”

“You’re lying.”

“Have you read my books?”

“They’re just that, Andy. Books. And how long did you scream that they didn’t reflect what was really inside of you?”

“You think it’s easy coming to terms with this?”

“You’re lying.”

“Let me prove it.”

This provoked a smile.

“You think this is bullshit?” I asked.

“I kind of do.”

“I won’t kill her.”

“Excuse me?”

“I won’t kill Violet,” I said. “But I’ll hurt her. Bad.”

His black eyes bored into me.

“This is real, Luther. This is happening. I know you’re lonely. There aren’t many out there like us. Who share our view of the world. It’s hard. But I’m there with you.”

“No one’s with me.”

“Well if you never trust, then you’ll never know.”

“I’ve never trusted anyone, Andy. Not even your brother.”

“But you loved him. As much as you’re capable of loving anything beyond your own gratification.”

He looked at Violet.

I told myself as the words streamed out of my mouth that it was all a lie. The only way to save us.

“Don’t tell me this isn’t what you want, Luther. A connection with someone else like you. You aren’t completely inhuman.”

The pain was flowing back into my legs and arms.

The strap across my forehead digging into my skin.

“You’re going to hurt her,” he said.

“Yes.”

“You’re going to do exactly what I tell you.”

“Yes. And then you’ll let her go.”

“But she’ll come back. She’ll look for this place. For me and for—”

“No,” I said. “I promise you. She will never come back.”

I could barely stand. It had been days.

The muscles in my legs as taut as steel cables.

He’d just jammed a syringe-full of painkiller into the side of my leg, and the effect couldn’t come quickly enough.

Luther had to help me across the concrete floor, ice-cold against the bare soles of my feet.

We stopped at the side of Violet’s gurney, and I stared down at her.

Heard her grunting against the pull.

“Andy,” she said. “I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

I looked at Luther as the drug hit my bloodstream.

The pain evaporated.

Clarity.

I stood on my own now. I stood taller.

“Don’t move from this spot,” Luther said.

He walked back to the control panel and pushed the cart over.

I reached down and touched her face, tears shimmering on the surface of her eyes like pools of liquid glass.

“Andy.” He grabbed me by the arm and pulled me over to the control panel and the rack of tools.

He guided my hands onto what resembled a mixing board.

The dials and equalizers were grouped in sections identified by white labels scrawled upon with black Magic Marker.

HEAT.

COLD.

PRESSURE.

ELECTRICITY.

PERFORATION.

ABRASION.

“Hurting the one you love,” he said, “takes real strength. Ask her what she’s most afraid of.”

“What are you most afraid of, Violet?”

“Andy—”

“Here are your options: heat, cold, pressure, electricity, perforation, abrasion.”

“Andy, what are you doing?”

“He’s embracing what he’s been fighting his entire life.”

“What’s that, Luther?” she asked.

“Truth.”

“This isn’t truth, Andy.”